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Loss

About 8 days ago I lost my mother to a painful, prolonged illness. She spent most of her time in her home, until she was hospitalized and then had to go to rehab for ambulatory issues. It was just too painful for her to go out. She had always been a woman on the go

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Another Promise

“We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace” (Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, pages 83-84).  Serenity is defined as being in a state of calm, peacefulness and untroubled.  Peace can be defined as absence of conflict and freedom from disturbance.  Sounds too good to be true?  We think not.  After coming into

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Newly Sober

When I was newly sober, I noticed that I smelled really strange.  I took shower after shower trying to rid myself of this smell.  It wasn’t a bad smell or a good smell.  It was just a smell.  I found out that it was my body leaching out all the chemicals which I had put

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Covet

The Big, Big Book states that “we shall not covet our neighbor’s wife or goods.”  Alcoholic addicts are notorious for coveting what is not rightly ours.  We shy away from work as a means to acquire goods and services.  We view ourselves as better looking than our neighbor, so we deserve his wife, or so

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Four Horsemen

The terrible Four Horsemen are found on page 151 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.  We will discuss each one separately in this BLOG. Terror Do you ever wake up wondering how you acted as you don’t remember because you were in a blackout?  You can’t remember what you said or did.  Maybe you

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Relapse

When we speak about relapse, we tend to speak in terms of ourselves.  This seems to be the natural thought process that occurs.  But what about when we think of others relapsing?  Or actually get news that a friend or loved one has gone out and relapsed?  I don’t think we realize the full impact

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What If?

I have often wondered if something so terrible could happen where I would relapse with drugs and alcohol.  Something such as my daughter being seriously injured or my mom passing away.  Those are my big two what ifs.  Well recently the phone rang on a Sunday and it was the hospital calling me to tell

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Loss of a Friend

Recently the Fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous lost one of our most hard-working and loving members.  His name is Deandre Moore.  Deandre was a larger-than-life type of person.  He grew up in the Watts area of Southern California.  I met him in 1994 when I moved to Lancaster, California.  I started going to AA meetings at

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Jaywalker

My favorite character in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous is the “Jaywalker.”  His story can be found on pages 37-38 in the Big Book.  The Jaywalker’s penchant for jaywalking is an analogy to the escalation of our drinking.  Just as the Jaywalker progresses in his disease of jaywalking, we progress in our drinking career.  

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There Is a Solution

After we have admitted our powerlessness over drugs and alcohol and that our lives had become unmanageable, and saw how we needed to believe in a Higher Power who could alleviate the insanity we suffered, we came to page 25 in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.  The first full paragraph starts out in italics. 

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